Goodbye Superman


"My father didn't tell me how to live. He lived. And let me watch him do it."
Clarence Budington Kelland

   In the past few months I've learned so much about your life, about the way you lived, loved and the way you cared. Some days are more difficult then others and some send me into a tailspin of emotions that I thought I had dealt with.
    
    In the time you've been gone I've seen just how much on an impact you left on the people closest to me, and those closest to you.
I've come to realize that you were preparing us for a life without you in it. That you were laying a foundation of faith and hope.
  
    Faith that things will get better, while it may not be at the exact moment we'd like for it to happen, but that it would happen  Faith that even without you we'd be strong in the moments of grief that are so strong that it's crippling. Faith that no matter what life throws at us we could know that you were still there through all the moments of joy and heartbreak, because even though losing you was hard we'd find the sunshine again and feel of its warmth.
   
    Hope for a brighter day, some day. Hope that even in the moments we feel all alone that you aren't too far away. Hope that one day we will see you again, and you will be the Dad we knew. Hope that you will be there, in some way for the everyday moments when all we need is to talk to Dad.

    I'm so thankful for the 25 years I was blessed to have you in my life. I'm thankful for the memories I can talk about that bring back the good times, and the smiles. But mostly I'm thankful that I had you to lay a foundation for me of what life was supposed to be, that one day I can say that I lived a full life and that I impacted someone and changed the world for better. 

   I can never tell you how much seeing you live your life made me who I am today. That hearing all of your stories of how many things you had to overcome just to become my real life Superman really means to me.

     Missing you comes in waves, sometimes they come so strongly that they knock me down. Sometimes it seems like life will never be the same, and I know it won't but I also know that you wouldn't want it to be the same 
So, Superman I miss you and I couldn't have been asked for a better man to call Dad. You showed me strength time and time again, you showed me humility. But most of all you showed me love in its truest and most pure form. I love you Superman and hope that I'm worthy to be called your daughter.

   So Superman while I miss you always, I look forward to so many things. 
"Tears are alright. they are the price we pay for love, care and compassion in the world." -Jeffery R Holland


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